cadillac dreams

thanks, san jose. it was fun.

love,
alice in beanerland.

no more tv

i dreamt that danny bonaducci worked at borders.
i was buying a book for my trip to la with russell
the plane had left three hours ago, but it wasnt a problem
but then esmeralda broke my phone and i got all hyphy.

stop being all dramatical!

again - i need a new job.

dream a little dream

i need to stop falling asleep with the TV on.

last night i dreamt bob saget was trying to break into my house.

no, not bob saget. Danny Tanner.

Danny Tanner was trying to break into my house in his gold satin 49ers coat.

what the fuck?

I tried calling 911, but I couldn't speak loud enough for the operator to hear me.

When she finally understood what I was saying,

she said, "danny tanner, seriously?"

and then i woke up.

spontaneous combustion

This is how I feel.

Except instead of bursting into flames,

I burst into tears.

Spontaneously.

made a home from a rented house

I’ve been pms-ing for like 2 weeks straight. I cant exactly pinpoint the reason, but I do know that moving is abnormally stressful. About two weeks ago I turned in my 30 day notice to my landlord. Right now I am in the process of packing up/throwing out/giving away all of my worldly belongings in hope of a more simple life. It’s both a burden and a relief.

It’s also very sad because this house became a home once Russell came into my life. This is where he would work all day on the micro fiber miracle couch and wait for me to come home. This is where we would cook meals together (technically, Russell would cook dinner and I would watch and/or help out in a nominal way). I loved our meatloaf, spaghetti and meatballs and frychos (mmmm frychos). We would have our kid nation Wednesdays. We’d have movie nights and date nights. We'd explore neighboring towns. I miss coming home and seeing Russell shirtless and sweaty from his run, with a dishtowel tucked in the back of his pants, bent over the sink, doing dishes and other husbandly things.

He's home again and for the next couple of days I can enjoy that life.

Next week I’ll be back in the city and will be looking forward to drinks in the old neighborhood.

words that I like

forte

naivete

brazen

high-falutin'

discombobulate

onomatopoeia

eschew

tomfoolery

and my favorite word of all time

cacahuate

Hold Me Close Young Tony Danza

I'm listening to my ipod at work and i just burst into laughter. Elton John's "Tiny Dancer" came on and I cant stop but think of Pheobe Buffay. Oh, Pheebs. You are so funny.

(From the One with the Princess Leia Fantasy)

ROSS: I have to say Tupolo Honey by Van Morrison.

RACHEL: Nooo Way! The most romantic song ever is The Way We Were.

PHOEBE: See, I-I think that one that Elton John wrote for, um, that guy on Who's The Boss.

RACHEL: What song was that, Pheebs?

PHOEBE: Hold me close, young Tony Dan-za.

another attempt at palm blogging

the myspace era is over. thank god. I still haven't been able to completely pull the plug, but I'm inching closer. i'm embarrased to log on at all and embarrased for people who log on every day. I realized that I like going on myspace and updating my profile song based on how I'm feeling or what mood I'm in. that's about it. I have no desire to send glittery comments to steph or anna or anyone else for that matter. I don't really care what people are up to.
there are a few blogs I like to read. cindys are always pretty entertaining and she takes great pics. i'll link to it next time I remember. russell writes great things, but his postings are few and far between (www.theunablogger.blogspot.com). sometimes I just need to read someone else's meandering thoughts, that's all.

I just need a place to ramble on and on about the stupid things I do each day. for instance, today I was pretty sluggish at work. its my first full week in I don't know how long and I'm going nuts. I'm moody and emotional and I miss my husband.
I didn't feel like working so I spent most of the day perusing the internet. some of the random things I did....
looked at the flavor of love website....looked at "hotlantas" myspace and began to read her bio. it was so freakin long, I gave up at the 3rd kid, 2nd baby daddy.
I looked at tiffany.com for things I can't afford. I looked at christian loubouitton (however u spell it) shoes. again, something I can't afford. I read about polygamy, incest, and cloe savigny's ugly dress. I read a blog about psycho exgirlfriends that I think I'd like to repost. I played a few logic games and wrote to my cousin in malta. I looked for a new friends message board where I can play trivia games with other losers.
okay, my fingers hurt from typing on this little thing. till next time.

i pity the fool

i have this itch, albeit tiny, to post pictures on the Internet so that others may post comments like, "aww how cute" or something of that nature. while I've resisted myspace for more than 40 days, i can't resist posting these pictures of Russell and i (along with a few others) just becausse i think they are cute. So I guess I’ll build a blog around them ;)

on April 1, we were both dead tired from our trip, but knew we only had one night in the city together. Russell and I planned a get together of sorts.

our regular locale was booked for trivia night, so we strolled down the street to someplace a little cozier.

we stopped by Chinatown earlier in the day to pick up some tricks to put up our sleeves for some april fools pranks. the best by far was a roll of quarters that gave out a shock when you grabbed them. i refused to touch them, mostly because i learned my lesson a few years ago with a trick lighter in vegas. we got the korean bartenders ladies really good, and they got their jollies by making every other dive bar attendee get shocked too.

Afterwards, we stopped by the gallery and I got a second look at Josue’s collection. Amazing work by talented artist. Only great things come out of the (real) mission district. (my opinion on the fake mission district is a whole blog in itself) Show runs until tomorrow April 5, http://twentygoto10.com/ but you can also read/watch video here:

http://news.newamericamedia.org/news/view_article.html?article_id=a6bfe3963301ce5d1a46880857a147d1


ok now enjoy my cute little pictures!

hawaii 5-0

okay, I've been off of work for over a week and needless to say the pile at my desk resembles the leaning tower of pisa. nevertheless, all i can think about is the marvelous week i spent with my honey, basking in the Hawaiian sun. we still need to sit down together and remember all of the things we did so that our trip can be properly documented.

i guess i can start with picking up Russell from the airport. his plane was delayed a little and i started getting sad/nervous/anxious after seeing 5,269 Japanese tourist come out of security --and not him. when he finally did come out, i nearly tackled him. after five weeks of talking only via phone or interweb, seeing him in person was quite a shock. i kept wanting to touch his face, because it didn't seem real.

the next morning we left bright and early for the airport. we couldn't have been more on time for our canceled flight. apparently, American airlines grounded over 200 flights that day. our flight was one of them. Russell helped me from completely losing my shit. he's really good at doing that. we were rerouted through L-Gay and had about a 6 hour layover there. we took a nap behind the counter next to a crazy meth head who tried to sell me her airline meal voucher. cray-cray.

we finally made it to Hawaii at about 930. a pacific islander, mormon pastor was on our flight and his entire congreation was there to greet him with leis. that dude was drenched in orchids, too many for his own good. it was unholy. a lonely lei was draped over a crippled grandma's wheelchair and just when her mentally challenged grandkids got up to take hawaiian grandma to the potty, i sent russell on a mission for the lei. well, maybe im exagerrating just a little, but russell did steal a lei for me.

not bad for a 15 hour travel day (something like that)

Jason and Amanda picked us up. We hung out at the house for a bit, then crashed out pretty soon after.

tbc....

our first Hawaiian sunset