ash wednesday

i was a good catholic today.
i didn't eat meat.
i didn't myspace. (is that a verb?)

When Russell and I re-met after a 10 year hiatus, I was curious about what he had been up to in the decade since I’d last seen him.

While perusing the net, I found this, and thought that he was the most fascinating person to ever come into my life. I knew I was truly blessed.

Sure the cast of characters include other women, but the story isn’t about them. For me, it’s the story of a forlorn Catholic boy on a crazy chase for his ashes, trying to make sense of it all. Everything means everything and everything means nothing.

Russell is full of stories and anecdotes. This is my favorite. When we first started dating last summer, people would say, “Tell me about this guy. What’s he like?”
I’d show them this. Nobody thought he was crazy. Everyone thought we were perfect together.

Recently, I suggested that perhaps I need to find God. Russell said, “It’s not the finding, it’s the seeking.” He's right. Maybe I'll talk to God about that tonight at mass.

http://youthoutlook.org/news/view_article.html?article_id=57bdaf1d282bb99cf628d541bca20cf7